Finally! The apple day seems to have worked, my hunger issues have ceased, and I am trying to get my head back in the game.
I think I might be a size 14 now but I have a stack of 12s with no 14s in sight. Maybe a trip to the thrift store is in order this weekend, at least just to see. I’ve been wearing dresses and they definitely fit differently but I wouldn’t have dropped a size in any of them by now.
Weight = 199.6
I’ve been busy and had some issues getting to the blog.
My weight has remained about the same for the last few days and I’ve had some issues with hunger. I skipped my shot yesterday because usually hunger is caused by having too much HCG in your system. Since my weight has been around 200.4 or so the last few days then I am eating only apples today (along with making sure I drink a gallon of water) to get past this plateau.
I feel a little frustrated, to be honest. I feel stressed out because I let myself get really behind at work and then the stress is giving me a mean case of the munchies. I just feel… off. My head is not in the game because my head has to be somewhere else so I can be successful at work. I need to make sure I am recording everything, everyday, and adding entries into this blog. It is a reminder of of the 15 pounds I HAVE lost and that I only have 15 more to go this round. I am halfway there yet I am have difficulty recognizing my own success. My face looks thinner but my body really doesn’t and I need to make my brain stop celebrating these small battles as winning the war, because I haven’t yet. Watching my weight in the graph on the top of this blog steadily go down is gratifying but I really have a long way to go still, about 60 more pounds. I can focus and get that 60 pounds whittled down to 45 by the end of the month. I need to focus on that and stop getting distracted by little things (and big things) in order to make myself proud.
Weight = 200.4
I WANT TO SEE 199 tomorrow morning
I was a little surprised to see 203 on the scale this morning. I drank A LOT of water yesterday, altogether over 4 liters if you include the two cups of coffee and a cup of tea. I really credit the keeping of this blog with keeping me on track. It is a way of feeling accountable without getting a lot of attention – ironic since the blog is public. I think I feel more accountable to myself though, and that is the big difference.
I have been excessively absent-minded lately. I’m not sure if it is from the low calories or the thinking about losing weight that is affecting my brain. I need some strategies to keep me a little more on top of things.
Weight = 203
I’ve been glancing through a bunch of blogs lately and have noticed a couple of things that are worth mentioning on here.
1) most diet and exercise blogs just sort of trail off and it is apparent that the writers have either given up on the changes or given up on writing. I am guessing the former is more often true.
2) most food blogs write about food as a reward
I’m trying to get out of food as a reward or food as a special treat so I can be more mindful and eat things that are nourishing rather than just yummy. Date nights too often center around going out to dinner (because then we have a chance to talk) and a movie rather than an activity. So I am going to use my list of goals to determine rewards that have little to nothing to do with food.
Mini-goal 1: 205 (met 11/26/12) – new iPhone (this seems excessive but I have needed to order it for a while)
Size goal – 14 – go to the movies by myself
Mini-goal 2 – 185 – pedicure before vacation
Size goal – 12 – a nice knife set, especially for cutting vegetables. This is food related but is more about healthy eating than eating as a treat.
Mini goal 3 – 167 – really nice boots – Frye? or maybe these from Country Outfitters
Size goal – 10 – Adipose earrings!
Goal weight – 150 – spend $1,000 on new clothes
Size goal – 8 – designer jeans
Hmmm, I can’t seem to finish. I need some new ideas. What else have I been/should I be coveting?
And I am renewing my commitment to continuing to write about this journey. It is a way of being accountable to myself and that is what being healthy is about.
I made it to my first little goal and am down ten pounds overall. I got a new little badge in my Lose It! app that I find absurdly rewarding. I rewarded myself by drinking a huge glass of water with lemon before leaving the house. 🙂
It was a sad long weekend though, with my husband being gone most of the time to be with his dad in the hospital. I tried to be productive yesterday and managed to get the laundry in and some of my own clothes sorted in between bouts of lethargy and diarrhea on the part of my three year-old. I did eat two small Tootsie Rolls which wouldn’t seem that bad except that I need to clear all the chemicals and gunk out of my system and those tiny pieces of candy aren’t doing me any favors. I also spent some time reading up on Phase 3 since I’ll be on vacation while I’m on it. It’s basically just strict Paleo, which I am used to, but it will be a bit of a struggle since there will likely be temptations while we are out. I need to keep finding ways of dealing with those – the mental X out of a pop-up temptation is still working okay but I honestly think the responsibility of writing everyday is a lot more useful to me.
I also calculated how long it might take me to get to my overall goal weight of 145 instead of just the interim weights. Maybe by the end of May if I can keep going strong? The reward is having $1,000 to spend on new clothing and I think we will also have enough money for me to actually be able to do that. Athleta and CAbi, here I come! I sorted through clothes yesterday though and made piles in my closet by size. I have several pairs of pants in size 12 – I tried on a pair of 14s and they still felt a little snug so I think it will be another week or so before they are comfortable enough to wear. At least the process of having them sorted made me a bit more confident that I won’t have to do much shopping in the coming month because holiday shopping scares me. I can concentrate on gifts for my family and friends instead.
Weight = 205 yes!!!
I feel a little frustrated that I was only down .8 this morning even though it’s irrational. I like seeing nice whole numbers on the scale. I lost two pounds yesterday. .8 in a day is still amazing. I know I’m not really expecting 40 pounds in 40 days but something in my brain must really be hanging onto that idea of losing a pound a day. While dwelling on it and packing up my lunch I saw the healthy Thanksgiving food and immediately felt hungry. My solution? I drank a large glass of water with lemon juice and immediately felt satiated. Also, now that I see it in the post title I like the symmetry of day eight and -.8. 🙂
So now I am shaking that off and working on my goal-setting. My first mini-goal, to weigh 205, should be coming up soon; I am hoping that is the number I see on the scale on Monday morning. I’m also hoping that number means size 14 pants will fit me. From there I calculated 10% losses for each upcoming goal and then I realized they would probably correlate with pants size. I think I weighed around 135-145 in high school and about 155 in college. I know I was 165 when we got married. I was reading something the other day about people starting to look thinner and then they lost focus because they already looked and felt better. I’m not sure how to fight that feeling because I have definitely had that issue before. I think I will just keep journaling in here to work through it and have a record of it to look back on later.
Mini-goal 1: 205 Size goal – 14
Mini-goal 2 – 185 Size goal – 12
Mini goal 3 – 167 Size goal – 10
Goal weight – 150 Size goal – 8
Weight = 209.2
This round of HCG is set to last 40 days. The “lose 40 pounds in 40 days” is a bit of a stretch but my goal is to go from a starting weight of 215 to 185 by Christmas.
1) eat only according to plan
2) no more than 2 cups of coffee per day
3) 1 gallon of plain water per day
4) 30 minutes of walking or gentle yoga each day – there are a lot of yoga classes available now on Hulu
Why am I doing this?
1) energy and quality of life – I feel tired too much
2) I was on WW for 4 months and lost only 4 pounds
3) this diet is gluten-free and I know I feel much better without gluten
4) this diet is basically a paleo diet and I know I feel better without grains
5) my blood test this summer showed I was pre-diabetic
6) I want to look better in clothes – I’d love to be in size 12 pants (in 16 now) by Christmas
Eventually I’d like to get down to 145. My plan is to meet my initial goal of 185 and, after being in phase 3 for a few weeks, do another round of HCG to get to 165. From there I would like to follow a strict paleo diet (again with lots of vegetables) and go to CrossFit classes at the gym.
Mini-goal 1: 205 (met 11/26/12) Size goal – 14 (met 12/7/12)
Mini-goal 2 – 185 Size goal – 12
Mini goal 3 – 167 Size goal – 10
Goal weight – 150 Size goal – 8
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